Can Angels exist on Earth?

Just bear with me.  I am feeling ready to share more fully about my mission and myself.  In the process I hope you will suspend your disbelief and be open to what I am sharing.  Just be a normal person interested in my experience of life.

Ok, here goes nothing!

Everyday I feel the whole world 100%.

I feel all the hurricanes, the earthquakes, the floods, the tension owing to the uncertainty of Trump as U.S. President, and all the lives beginning and ending each day.

My sensory system is far from “normal!”

Can you even fathom feeling just your family’s feelings?  I feel theirs and anyone’s within just about a minimum distance of under 100 educated people (people open to energy).  Each person can always block me by shutting themselves to just and basically divine energy.

Always and forever,

Jordyn

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Man is one species

On Wednesday last week I experienced calm only when dealing with being told I should be leashed.

100% Mommy did not remain calm.

Mommy was so angry.  Doing everything in her power to be calm.  I totally get her anger! Being bigger people we let it go.  Took more effort for Mommy than me.

Basically, totally not worth being angry because only affects our day.  There will always be uneducated people who don’t understand autism in its many forms.

I trust that soon there will be a shift in how we, with motor cortex and sensory differences, are viewed.  100% intelligent and compassionate joy-filled humans here to wake up the numb and entitled to a world of inclusion and 100% acceptance of all human differences.

Jordyn

{Picture:  me happy in the river}

Having a hard body week

Do you ever wonder what it feels like to do things you don’t want to do only because your body reacts to absolutely everything?  Probably only families and therapists of people like me have.

Not knowing what it is like to be fully in control, I may not be able to describe it in a way that you could fully get, but I will do my best to give you a glimpse.

Many people think that people with autism are absolutely just misbehaving.  I wish I had the control to willfully think of what I wanted to do and execute it.  Only with the greatest of occasional unassisted purposefulness can I make a little mischief intentionally.  Just allowing myself to dream of the funny things I would do is all I get.

Allowing a fully capable dangerous autistic to dream of tricks would make a great guide for misbehaving kids.  I bet our ideas are brilliantly thought out.

Being a slave to impulse is much like being on a diet then wondering how that forkful of calorie and sugar filled cake ended up in your mouth.  Except you do have an ability to stop, rationalize, and not have a bite.  We eat the cake like it is the last meal we will ever have, 100% joyfully and impulsively.

Jordyn 100%

I love my Mommy

There is only one Mommy.  Good-hearted, fabulously genuine, and always loving.

My mommy just makes people feel loved and heard 100% by just being herself, no tricks or gimmicks needed.

Because she is my rock 100% I notice how different I feel when she isn’t here with me. Just not as grounded and able to control my body.  Do you ever feel eager to always feel your body?  Joyfully, when Mommy is a good pressure-free listener I feel so absolutely in my body and able to 100% express anything I need, or want, to.

How can I develop this feeling without needing her, that is the trick?  Just having Nelson helps a lot.  100% joyfully being a dog’s boy.

Being a cool mommy, she helped me find an absolutely wonderful dog named Rocky who will be part of our family now.  He is pure of heart, but still a little nervous in his new angelic home.  Yes he is named Rocky, you read that right.  Really perfect somehow!

Love and fully Jordyn,

Jordyn

{Featured image, waking up camping.  Below, Rocky the Dog}

How do I be a good human?

I think about this a lot.  Too much of me is angelic to sometimes be a good human.

“What do I mean by this?” you might be thinking.  Well, I believe we are all angels with varying degrees of how in touch we are with the angel inside.  I believe that a lot of autistics are more in touch with their angelicness.

Having a diverse sensory system has been a blessing and allows me to experience things you may not.  So just because you don’t experience what I experience, don’t discount it as possible.

Joyfully damaged is one way I describe myself.  I would not want to be any other way. Well, there are moments I do think “Damn my crazy out of control body”, but that is only human.

Dancing with my crazy body is 100% a chore.  I am limited to what I can and can’t do, sure.  However, I would not want to give up how I perceive things for a body that behaves or a mouth that speaks purposefully.  Far be it from me to waste my energy with wishing for another body.  I would rather use that energy to further my ability to control the body I have.

Sometimes being me means being misunderstood.  People see me toe walking, jumping and running, screaming or being loud, watching little kid videos or playing repeat what I say with mommy, etcetera, and they see a boy being badly behaved or a less than normal boy.  They don’t see me.

The caring listener, loyal friend, joy-filled non-speaker, giving and intelligent human.

Perception guides how we interact, but what if all 100% humans could drop their learned filters and see each other for who they truly are.  What kind of planet would we live on then?

Jordyn