River refresh

My all time favourite place on Earth is just up the road from my house.  The river rages or slowly gurgles depending on the time of year.

Currently I can’t wade in for long because it is just way too cold.  However, that doesn’t stop me from making short trips into the flowing water.

I love the feel of muck squishing between my toes and over the years the river muck has successfully eaten a few Crocs.  The water rushing around my body feels like it is cleansing any bad energy that I may have accumulated.  The hanging canopy of trees wraps me in a blanket of nature, no quasi diabolical and draining WiFi signals to deal with.

Taking walks down the middle of the river is my sensory deprivation tank experience of calming and peacefulness.  I am so grateful to be able to go there almost daily from May to November.  Happiness is the river by my house.


Understand I am super sensitive

Many may wonder about my energy level and sensitivity to the environment.  I hope my sharing my experience here can help others like me.

Just think how walking into a raucous party may uplift you, or walking into a funeral home might have you feel down, or being in a room where people are arguing and you feel the tension.  Well, turn your sensitivity to those emotional environments up by 1000.

Just keeping my body under control to navigate the every day uses all the energy I have.  Now add an emotionally charged environment and/or people and I’m tapped out of control energy.  Like asking a car to maneuver on fumes, it isn’t always going to make it to the station.

I have been having a very hard week after the incident in Toronto with the van.  The way the environment has reacted is highly charged and there isn’t enough joy to balance it out.

I am hoping that the city can move on quickly, because the impact of living in negative emotion soup is affecting everyone.  I feel deeply for those affected directly and am sending them healing energy, but don’t have enough for everyone.

To be an angel is to want to help and heal all.  Daring to be me and not turn off my heart and thankful for a Communication and Regulation Partner who flows with me and grounds me.  Always keeping herself as even keel as possible so I can be my best self.


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Do I want a cure?

Mommy asked me if I wanted to contribute to Autism Dialogues project to connect parents and autistics.  I love this idea so I said sure.

Here is my answer to the question “Do you want a cure?”

ONLY if cure means that I make a difference the way very favourite joyfully autistic me can.

My mission to bring love and peace to the planet gives my life a purpose it would not have if I was an only ordinary boy of 14.

Having the gifts I have allows me to joyfully create a nice love filled environment around me like a pebble in a pond that ripples outward.  I would not trade that for a reliable voice or controllable body.

I am understandably for all joyfully helpful supports.  Just no change to who I fundamentally am.

I love myself exactly as I am.


{Water image created by Freepik – https://www.freepik.com/free-photos-vectors/water} 


Passionate and quite angelic with me

I have quite a hard time with storms.  The pressure is war on my muscles and joints.  I ache all over.

This weekend sucked with the constant rain of ice pellets.  Quite a cacophony of aches and soreness.  Body control is always less when I hurt.  I needed lots of down time.

Always helpful Mommy gave me homeopathics, pressure, and a lot of patience and love.  Sometimes too much patience when she should walk away from my positively seesaw demolition man body.

Yes, for ways to support me.  I love when my friends help me with my unruly body.  No, I do not want to harm anyone.  So friends, and Mommy, need to sometimes go away and let me deal.



Angels so peacefully walk among us

Being connected by a common thread for all we love and hate requires so much energy.

Now going to occasions where many angels gather, is getting tougher on me.  Especially those angels who are unaware of their true selves and are being told who they are by those that love them.

My parents accept and support my loving angelic self, while gauging all I want to accomplish against the energetic toll on me.

Less angels would not be as sensitive to talk of guest in their space.  I lose energy with any negativity or being hard on oneself.  Good thing I can tell those I love to chill out.

Mommy looks like she is chill, but that is good facade so she can play so nice with just love.  Underneath she is always questioning her value.

I am so lucky to witness the moments when all goes quiet in her busy mind and she is only present.

Being my Communication Partner or my proxy during a presentation are two of those times.  She becomes a conduit through which communication is delivered.  My Mom is a kick ass presenter and Communication Partner because she prioritizes the communication over her thought, feelings, and ego.  Simply put, she gets herself completely out of the way.

I lucked out to have such an angel of a Mommy.  Being given the space to create my mission and life as happily as I want has me create big and play big.  You should keep watching this space.


Awareness is Monday, Action is rest of year!

Today was Autism Awareness Day.  What do you think about that?  I am so tired of awareness, without effective action.

Nothing changes without action.

Take a moment and be captivated by the awesomeness of someone you are connected to that is on the spectrum. You see, the best action you can take to be more aware is to have a one-on-one conversation with someone on the spectrum, and really get in their world.

Connection creates awareness, compassion, effective action, and real true friendship.

I wish for all my peers to get the supports they need to fulfill their missions in life and be wildly happy while doing it.  Support comes in many form besides Applied Behavioural Analysis, but until the powers that be can admit there isn’t just one quasi-effective approach to supporting us, nothing will change and a huge proportion of us will be under-supported.

Ok, rant over. Back to our regular program…

Lead with love, respect, and friendship next time you encounter an autistic person.  We will be grateful for the action, and you may be greatly blessed.