Do you understand when a person with autism is being badly behaved that they have no control over these impulsive actions?
I was having a hard time yesterday because of pressure in the atmosphere. Headache and body aches galore.
Always asking kindly about what is happening is so helpful.
We went out for my favourite breakfast. Being a harder body day I stalled until a time that is usually empty. Am moving, just slowly hoping to avoid a crowd.
Well, that didn’t work. It is fall and everyone and their aunt was out to see the leaves or hike. The place was full full full. So now add on the sensory input and emotions input of the crowd. A wee bit on edge I was.
To deal I requested headphones and iPad. I have been working hard on not relying on iPad and being present at breakfast talking with family, but knew it wasn’t a day to work on that. And guess what? The WiFi didn’t want to work. Yes, you read that correctly.
So, my body starts to scream and mush Mommy and yell! Can you see the whole picture?
All I want is to be good sitting with family eating and chatting, but the cards are stacked against me.
Now add the reactions of the other diners. While no one said anything I could feel them start to judge and be annoyed.
If only they could understand how I wish to absolutely be an ideal patron. Or all have one moment where they have no body control. Then maybe they could muster compassion and caring, and discover love and acceptance as demonstrated by my parents.
I always am my own worst critic, I don’t need their help. I’ve got that covered.